insert title here July 25, 2007

I started typing this the other day and then my pc went all wonky… so,

********* Sunday’s Post **********

I am so tired I can’t even think very clearly.  Friday, Corey went to Hollywood and I miss him terribly.  But it’s OK, I told him he should still go – he misses his friends. Well, he did, now he just misses me, lol.  He’ll be home Tuesday, and he promised to bring me a present.

Friday I went to dinner with Kim. We had Thai, and I got to have the most delicious beef basil dish in the world, followed by sticky rice with coconut ice cream. Afterwards we stopped at Joann’s in search of letterboxing supplies, and then had a nice walk. Since it is entirely abnormal for us to NOT have Mexican,we stopped at a Mexican restaurant for a drink and some chips and salsa. I tried that new Miller Chill – LOVE IT!

Saturday mom, Kim, and I went and found 3 – count ‘em, 3! – letterboxes in some very cool places. I love discovering a place within minutes of where I grew up – that I never knew existed!  We followed that up with an indoors picnic, and then I sent everyone away so I could read the new Harry Potter book.

Now, I generally do read it right away when a new one comes out, but this time I felt a great sense of urgency. I found out late in the that spoilers were out, and I feared I would inadvertantly hear some jerk give something away. This is also part of the reason I did not pick up my reservation at midnight – I figured some of those rabid dressed up fans would wreck it.  So, I read it all, and now I want to read it all again at a leisurely pace. But I have lots of other books to read first, lol.

*********** Wednesday’s Post *************

This week mostly sucked, but Corey came home last night, which was wonderful. Other than that, the most interesting news I have is that I joined Jenny Craig. So, I guess I’ll be having weight loss updates for awhile.

I haven’t had much luck at accomplishing alot lately. And I am not daling with my stress well. But I have to remember there are people alot worse off then me. So, in the meantime, please share some happy stories with me. I haven’t been getting around to everyone else’s blogs, so maybe you could just leave me some comments about your happies, ok? No babies though… puppies are good. I love puppies. =)

Thank You July 20, 2007

By now I had planned to respond to each of your comments, but I haven’t managed that yet.  So for now, thanks to each and every one of you for your kindness and support.

I’ve come accross a few more curveballs and can only hope life settles down soon.  In the meantime, I just might get to scrap this weekend. =)

honesty July 16, 2007

I’ve been debating whether or not to share what is really going on with me these days. Debating whether this blog is meant to just be some surfacy type things, some nice layouts and cards and whatnot.  Or if it is meant to be a real reflection of me.

Just the same way I want my personal journals to show the ral me, and even my scrapbooks to some extent, although I don’t do much non-happy stuff there.

And I know some of my real life heartaches have made there way up here both intentionally and unintentionally.

So this is what I am going through. I guess if youjust want sunshine you can stop reading here.

Many, if not all of my friends and the people I have “met” through my blog know that I lost a baby in February.  I was 16.5 weeks along and actually had to deliver my baby boy.

Well, as soon as we could we started trying again. And we got pregnant immediately. Hence the overabundance of naps I’ve been taking lately. We were really sure everythng would be just fine – I think I did a really good job of being positive about things. But when I went for an ultrasound last week, at 8 weeks, there was just an empty gestational sac. No baby. So now I am faced with the option of waiting for nature to take it’s course and pass this naturally, or to have a d&c. And I really don’t know right now what I want to do.  Aside from scream alot. And sleep alot. I knew this could happen, but I really didn’t think it would. But, since this year has been truly awful, I am not all that surprised. And I am mad.  Just f-ing angry. Not at anyone or anything, just mad.

I have also decided to quit reading some blogs I frequent. I cn’t stand to read about another prgnant woman comlaining about getting fat or being uncomfortable. Yeah, I know it sucks and it is your cross to bear, but I don’t need to read that. It’s  shame because I will miss some of the good things I got to share.  Not that I have been keeping up to well, but there is one I read all the time that I just have to give up, or scream.

Anyway, this probably is too much of a complaining post itself, but I don’t care.  It is real and it is me. And it sucks.

about what I expected July 13, 2007

well, not quite.  the visit to the doctor f’d my day up but good. not what i wanted to hear, but pretty f’ing average for 2007. we’ll see how next week fares.

i did manage to get out to eat wednesday. we got takeout and ate in a park. then we hunted a mystery letterbox. it got very late, so it was too dark to find the box with a crappy flashlight. the next day we went back with a better flashlight. the clues were great, it was a fun hunt, but damn if those were not the most disgusting trees to potentially hide a box. i’d say all but a very few boxes we’ve found have been in trees. i have never yet been afraid to get in there and look before. we peeked into 10 likely candidates but YUCK! we’ll go back in winter when the bugs are gone. i think they’ll be gone.

after thursday’s attempt at the same box we dropped off corey, and daisy and i went to see the harry potter movie. i liked it. it was dark. it fit my mood.

i was going to go for the pedicure today, but ended up sleeping after work and getting up too late to swing it. so it goes back on the list for tomorrow. i also plan on doing more letterboxing tomorrow, but i have to finagle the box i want to do around corey’s schedule. i also need to figure out what other boxes are nearby.

tonight the first order of business is to figure out what i want for dinner. i have been pondering this for an hour and a half. and then i have a couple of scrap projects i want to work on, and an attempt at organizing some clues.

hmmm, fridays, applebees, mexican, or italian? none of them appeal. i wish someone was around to go to dinner with me.

let’s compare July 11, 2007

This is what I would like to do today:

Go to the doctor

Go the bookstore and get a hair magazine

Get a pedicure

Go out to dinner

Find a letterbox or 2 or 3

Go see the Harry Potter movie

I know it is impossible to accomplish all of these things in a single day. I KNOW that. But I want them all.  Sigh… Let’s see which ones I actually do!

getting back in the swing of things July 10, 2007

Corey and I had so much fun Sunday! He bought lots of “big boy clothes” (read NOT rock shirts). I even got a few things – including scrap stuff. It was SO hot though. Once it cooled down we even went hunting for a couple of letterboxes. I have to say, it didn’t matter much in the beginning, but I HATE finding purchased stamps – even if they are new to me.

Yesterday I was pretty much down for the count and read all evening after work.

But today I felt good, so Corey and I went to dinner at Rockne’s (not too bad – I’ve been craving potato skins ever since Kathryn mentioned thema few weeks ago.) And then we got to go find a letterbox I’ve been wanting to get for a long time now. It was so fun! A new park for us, a chance to hone our stealth skills, and just a cool box. But man, WTF? Every box we find now has a flippin hitchiker in it. We can’t get rid of them fast enough. I have to go update our log book because I don’t always get everything done at the park, in the itnerest of time.

Tomorrow… we are going out for Steak!  Hmm, maybe we’ll just get mom to cook some on the grill instead. We’ll see.

so much has happened July 8, 2007

It’s been so long since I had either the time or energy to be near the computer for reasons other than work. The last 2 weeks were simply exhausting.

Corey’s grandma fell and broke her hip. She decided to go forward with the surgery, but she had a stroke that impeded her ability to heal. What a tough, strong lady. We spent every day for a week and a half by her side – Corey is such a good grandson. Sadly, she passed away on Wednesday. Her funeral was yesterday. It was so very sad, but at the same time wonderful to see how many people loved and cared about her.

I guess it is time to remember how to live our lives again. The weather is hot and I’m exhausted, but hopefully I will be back in the swing of things. I am so sad I had to cancel my visit to Chicago to see Kathryn, but geez, she’s in the US so often… I just tell myself there will be another opportunity.  As it will definitely be a few years before we can swing a trip to Australia.

I did get to visit with my mom’s side of the family on the 4th of July. It was so nice to see everyone – and the kids are all so grown up. <sigh> I feel old. We did get to shoot of some fireworks before the cops came, lol. At least he let us finish our display – how cool is that? We also had these enormous giant sparklers – I so need some for my mother-in-law. Hmm… Maybe for my mom’s birthday party.

OK, this is all I have on me for now. I am going to read for a few (I had read so many books in the last 2 weeks I lost count) and then … <drumroll please>… Corey and I are going to Aurora Farms. It’s not called that anymore, but neither of us will give it up. Yes, my hubby is all about clothes and shopping these days, and has begged to go to the outlets!