Check out Corey’s blog to see and read about Baby Colin!
http://coreyroticsucks.wordpress.com/2008/12/27/colin-the-photos/
mmm, cookies December 19, 2008
My mom makes the best chocolate chip cookies. She claims to just use the old tollhouse recipe, but for some reason when she makes them… better than anyone else’s. She made up a batch for Christmas today. I am not sure there will be any left!
37 Weeks December 16, 2008
Today is a huge day, and not just in terms of the size of my belly. Colin and I have reached the 37 week mark.That means he is now full term. We have come a really long way, and Corey and I couldn’t be happier. We also couldn’t have gotten through this without our friends and family. Thanks to everyone for all of your help, support, and prayers. It won’t be long now!
We found out about “Baby Milner” on May 4. I don’t think either of us were really expecting a positive result on that test. I know I wasn’t. I couldn’t believe it. I didn’t really know what to do or even feel. I was unbelievably excited and unbelievably scared all at once. But Corey and I decided 2 things right away. One, we would break all of our traditions – no pictures, no flowers. And Two, we would just accept everything at face value and know that this baby woul dbe healthy, safe, and strong, and we would be raising whoever it turned out to be together in the future. As many fears and anxieties as we have faced in the last few months – and in the last 2 years – we decided to just have faith that everything would be ok.
It’s been a long road, with some difficult patches. We’ve been scared a few times, but I think more than anything we have been happy and excited. Each time we hear his heartbeat or see his pictures it just reaffirms that this little guy is just fine. Whether I feel good or sick, tired or wide awake at 4 AM, achy or in absolute pain, we are always happy. Happy that these are the things you do to have a baby. All these crazy feelings, all the wild emotions – it’s all so worth it and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
I think alot about those women who comment on what it would be like for a man to give birth. I feel pretty bad that Corey doesn’t get to go through this same experience the way I do. Not that I want him to feel the bad things, but I would just love for him to know what it feels like to have a baby moving inside of you. That is the most amazing thing in the world. I know he can feel it from the outside, but that is just a fraction of the wonder. I wish there was a way to share it with him. Baby Colin sometimes just knows what mommy needs. When I start to worry he often starts moving around so I know he’s ok. When I can’t fall back asleep he wakes up and keeps me company too.
Colin is our little miracle. Our gift from God. And he is watched over so carefully by his guardian angel, his brother Robbie. I feel Robbie with us all the time. I wish we could have both babies. I wish we could have all 4. I feel blessed that we got to hold and see our Robbie even though he couldn’t stay with us. And I know that it is through him that we were able to know and do the things we needed to keep Colin. We are blessed.
Colin at 32 weeks, 6 days
A little fun December 5, 2008
I set up a little online baby pool so you can all guess Colin’s birth date and measurements. Now, don’t get too excited – there is no actual prize involved here. Just the honor of being the winner. And I might call you a real smarty pants or something awesome like that. Anyway, times are tough all around and I just really need to focus on something fun right now. And besides, Colin is making Corey and I happier than we have ever been. I hope you all play along!
